Letting Go

"Toxic King Frog's Boots"

I had a mini epiphany this weekend.  I was putting too much on my "plate" of stuff-to-do.  At first it was out of a genuine excitement and fire for being a productive artist preparing for the rest of my life, but after weeks of good motivation, creative fire, applications and deadlines met, I burned out.  I realize that I wasn't taking enough time to appreciate the things I have accomplished.  I also realized that going to residencies isn't the biggest desire in my life.  If I apply to a few less, and spend the extra time fantasizing and planning for our future house in Vermont, reading books and spending time with Mikel, my life will be much happier and I will still have applied to a ton of residencies.  What's a few less applications?  It doesn't make a difference in the end.  The only thing that does make a difference is if I feed my creativity and allow it to go where it wants to.  At first it wanted to apply to a bazzilion things which was great because I got a lot done, but now it's ready for new tasks and focus.  I appreciate my efforts and also my willingness to let go of a few things I had on my To-Do list.  Time for some new fun!